The uncomfortable topic of incited rape on the self.
There are... individuals... we often hear the idea of a free spirited person or wild and free people.
There are people who awaken and when they awaken they realize they have been playing a game and to with they will wrong anyone who has wronged them, not only in this life but in the past life. As they will not say but they remember.
These... regretful to say, deities are able to incite the pressure of you to do evil things when in your heart of hearts you would never do so.
Something as innocent as two children discovering the non-art of not love-making but instead fucking as sex is no where in the equation to where they are put by the idea of connection brought upon by citification.
They believe they are right and so you are wrong and though you apologize or want the best for them they still do not fight on your side as this is a battle of lineage... something that many are aware of and if not become aware of... at that point are you the winner or the loser? Is there a chance for a come back or is it a lost cause?
Did you give up your crown to instead hold the world in the palm of your hands?
It's a difficult conversation and as to someone who was molested as a child and threatened in all ways and past place in the worst whether physical or mental to endure and live, I understand and see the gray (grey) lines.
I do not condone the act nor do I support the evils that are done or the thought of bringing evil upon anyone in such a way. Even in thought as the lustful thought alone stains the heart and mind to have it be as if a vibration is created that distorts as if this act has been done.
That to say—there are people... female and male that can cause the other person to be blamed for raping them when they are the ones that but the incisioned pressure on them to invoke their lustful mode of deadly state to say to the judges whether in human court or spiritual court that you are the guilty one and not them.
You then begin to develop depression or a craving or stuckness for that person because the court essentially cursed you like the gods of ancient times would do to each other to betterment or die off. Its a conversation in itself so lets continue.
You are a young man and the idea of sex is in your mind because that is what society has told you is what makes you into a man. Well... the puzzles are already being cut and pieces shaped to tell your story... to tell your fate. This is... horrible... distortionist would have it to be that way so those with potential can give their potential to those they want to have potential because they're agenda works better for them then those who would be innocent have them speak up.
In the same vice verse, a young woman could also experience the same; as we always here the tale of a man raping a woman, it is a laughter if a man rapes a man, a sexual enjoyment if a woman rapes a woman and a damn lie if a woman rapes a man... Isn't that something?
What I want to get across here is that there are shifts... in breaking the barrier of another's virtue they play like two sharks in the womb to essentially fight so one may be born and the other eaten. Thus the previous paragraphs.
You might be dealing with this now. You are being blamed for a rape that was equally consensual because they painted you as the bad guy in their head and because they had more figured out then you are the time they were able to spin the table and say you did evil yet can't admit to their own evils.
These relationships are not just relationships... the gods have sex by eye contact or feeling of a vibration through the atmosphere alone and the ones truly on my side do not want this, but there are ones that do want this that are not truly with me. Here there are people who know how to do the same thing... on how to sync in with you... especially if they felt the basic attribution of sex or a kiss or a moment of insight in any aspect to say... "I like this. I'll save it." Thus a file is born...
Your exes especially, those who have liked you in the shadows that never even spoke to you, a stranger on the street, someone you rejected; those who work with you by default of every relationship with a human or animal or plant or nature is a relationship regardless of how gross that sounds... a friendship is a type as well but lets not act like some people want to be more than friends and are not even real friends to begin with but just want to take your virginity.
Once they "eat" you they are able to use everything you write and do against you no matter how good because they want you to lose, even if you learned your lesson, even if it was a mistake, even if it was their fault and they brought you into the realm of "I'm going to say 'Stop, stop! Oh God, stop!'" just to later say "No, I really meant stop." having you gaslit.
What a complex talk don't you agree? It's a shame that someone will read this and go through the opposite of what this is and play on the side of those who say they want good and not want good as in this you can tell I am fighting for an equality.
Or perhaps... you read it that way because the same thing is happening to you indefinite and you are in the programmation of those who want you to believe this chat was evil so you don't know the evils that are being done to you and so... they swing it to me...
Sure, I'll be your devil.